well...

i have promised to be nicer to Megan, i have been upsetting her allot more lately (about every 5 mins according to her)... and i don't want it to mess things up. i want to do the thing we have talked about. but i dont want her to suffer being with me if I'm gonna be a jerk constantly. i will be allot nicer, and stop pissing her off. i know i have a self centered mentality... but i didn't know it would lead to this. maybe that's the reason my relationships haven't lasted for longer than about 3 weeks or so! but this one is almost on its 8th month! imagine that! i could not stand losing her, we know each other so well... its really really nice. i love you Megan, and i am sorry for being an ass.

and i just watched this movie called "who killed the electric car"... it really opened my eyes. they destroyed all these electric cars they created. for no reason other than the fact that they didn't think they would sell... but there was a huge waiting list for people that wanted to buy them. it brought a tear to my eye... literally, just the fact that the oil companies have such a huge grip on car manufacturers and the government. i URGE everyone to watch this movie. i guarantee that you will be deeply moved and hate GM.