i just cant take it

i just spent about 2 hours working on the front front wheel for my bike, i put the tire on, it goes flat. i spent about 2 hours looking for the tools that my brother lost to take it apart and put it back together. i just cannot be not pissed nowadays... everything! people have no clue what im feeling... why im pissed off, and they just blow it off like its nothing. i have so much weight on my shoulders right now, i dont need this. my deck is a mess, my yard looks like a dump, my house looks as though its condemned... i have cars and shit that i cant even get rid of. its just too much. im going for a walk in a bit. i wanna cry but im too mad at the moment. i wanna listen to my ipod, but i dont have any headphones other then the stupid ipod ones that suck ass. i just wanna leave it all behind, even if i had to lose some things that meant anything to me... well... a few i could not live without. i just wanna go a live in a city, where people get around on bikes, but it seems as though i killed that possibility with my shitty grades. i look at all these other kids... the ones with nice houses, nice cars, jobs... it just makes me angy how no matter what i do i cant have that. that happy life. there is only one thing i caer about, and thats the people that care about me. i guess this is the more emo side of me... i mean c'mon... the bills can barely get paid, my parents relationship is pretty much in the shitter, my house is a pile of crap. yet i still have a cell phone, $2000 mountain bike, various other things... so i cant really comlpain, and that makes me mad, talk about a sweet/sour thing here! if megan ever deiced to move to new york, im going... no questions asked.