holy crap!

its 5:09 am!!! and im still not really tired! i have been out riding all night. i still dont feel all that good about things that have been braught to light between me and megan... it hurts. i keep trying to think of what i could fix... and how close i really was to losing her, man this sucks. and i cant hope for a fix like normal with things that happen with her parents, i actualy need to think of how to fix this. i need to start treating everyone better... not just her.. but her especialy, i think i have really hurt her. and the sad thing is that i have not noticed it. i dunno, alot of things need to change in the next few weeks, things like this, other things, and yeah... goodnight.