well...

apparently according to megan i look and act different... in a good way, like more grown up or something, maybe thats a sign of good things to come, and man i need em. we had some time to reflect on things together tonight, it was good, but still painful. i have been listening to the band say anything, i really like the song 'alive with the glory of love'... for some reason, its pretty twisted too. its raining outside now... maybe that signifies a new me ...? hmm. im in a really weird/good mood, not like usual though. i dunno, its like 2 in the morning, i should get some sleep soon. today was pretty good, or atleast the latter half of it... especialy the latter half!!! i need change, things are changing for me, but in odd directions... i wish i knew how to aim the changing-things in a way that is best for me, nothings really bad, just different. things are changing fast, and i dont know what i should do. ideas please?

k, nite <3