the gallon is dead

asdf, today was boring... really, even though we had a half day. and tomorrow is gonna be even worse.. at least til like 2:30 or so. my bus is really pissing me off, it like runs good for a while, then i go to start it and the damn thing just kicks over a few times then dies again! stupid double relay... i need to replace it! but i dont have like $50. speaking of cash, anyone wanna buy a 2 gig nano for $100? any takers!?

im bored now and listening to the distillers, current song: the hunger

im not going to graduate this year, that sucks, but i have learned that worring about things this long in advance just messes with your mind. so im just gonna do the best i can to have fun this summer, hang out with freinds, try not to piss megan off too bad... ect. just live. (note that i am not going to be laid back as much...)

el-camano

so today me and megan went to camano island to visit her cousin, it was fun... and i got to watch a pug hump a stuffed moose! it was the best, and the little bugger was going at it for like 30 mins! we hung out with megans other cousin (shit she has alot), thomas... he was... amusing...

all in all a good fun day... nice and eventful!

oh yeah megan, my nipple itches, thanks!

seattle-ness

well, me and a group of peeps went to seattle today to look for shit to do. it was fun, we walked all over the place but i didnt complain once...which is amazing! megans cousin whacked things with his cane and made lots of noise. i think me and megan made plans to move to seattle in a $1500/month apartment.. people can dream cant they? haha. overall a fun day, and i read out of a bible for the first (and last) time in my life! it was insane!

my motto

"live for the day"

this is me, i dont look at the future (it depresses me too much), and i dont look at the past cause its the reason my future depresses me. people need to stop worrying about things that they have no control over at the very moment they think of them. if the only reason that you start panicking and thoughts start racing through your mind is because you have nothing better to do... then just stop, if you have the time to think about these things, then you deffinatly dont have the opertunity to fix them, there is no reason to tear yourself apart over it. if there is nothing you can do at the very moment, then dont try to over-analyze everything, it just fucks with your mind. after a bit you cant differentiate between your "plans" and reality, that is where most people seem to mess up the most, doing too much planning instead of doing. grab the day by the huge sweaty, hairy, nutsack... and pull for all you are worth!

did i hurt you too?

to anyone that has felt over the years that i have been mean to or hurt them, i am sincerely sorry and i apologize. i am trying to fix this and change myself, its going to be hard and take some time, but i will come around. i have to, or i feel i may lose the people i love. i feel that my mom has taken most if the grunt... i just dont have the guts at the moment to apologize to her. i feel like shit.

bored

i want to go to bed! but im too lazy to go up stairs...

today was fun, lots of things to take pictures of today, it was raining all day, and insane amounts too! megan almost killed me on the way back, the car was like floating! we woulda got to bellevue faster with a boat!

my bus was not angry at me today, nothing broke! (that i know of...), i think she finaly got over me driving the expidition all winter.

and my cat is meowing from in the other room, i want to shoot it with a cannon that fires avacodos! that would be sweet!

oh! and my computer is taken apart all over my room! and somehow it still manages to work (how im typing this now!), its sweet!

i need a camera (digital slr) bad, i have so much skillage taking pics... and i need to make some cash selling pics!

boredom! amuse me peeps. i need it. and did i mention im tired!?

megan

well, she wrote one about me, so il write one about herrrr. hurray.

she thinks shes a fuckup, and is not good in school, and a crappy example to her brothers... mostly she is right! but who cares, her brothers watch west side story, her parents think the worst of her, ect... there is no reason for her to feel shitty about herself, it seems there are enough people around to do that for her.

i love you and dont care how much of a fuckup you think you are, that changes nothing.

i used to know... but its all over now.

social distortion is the best band ever, hands down, there is no better! mike ness (lead singer) has got to be the coolest guy alive! i love how there is such a wide array of types of music they do, from older punk style, rockabilly, kinda coutry (like what johnny cash did), and all of em combined into one! and the insane thing is that they have been around since the late 70's, all the band members have moved on, and there have been new recruits, ect, but mike ness still rages on! the thing i want more than anything is his signature on my forearm so i could have it tatued in, that would be so friggen sweet!...

socialdistortion.com

i almost lost someone i love

ok, this is possibly the saddest story ever! i am trying to keep from crying as we speak! today i went out biking, i was ehs on the ledge by the little theatre... i was going from a tooth-pick stall to a smith-stall, my bike kicked out a little too much and i fell on my side. it hurt a little, i got up a kept biking around. little did i know that i had just brought a loved one close to death. on the way back i decided to check the time on my cellular device, i looked down and the screen was all rainbow colored and stuff, both screens were toast (the outer one and the inner one), you could not see anything! i started paniking... what was i gonna do?! what about all my contacts?! what about texting?! (i just got 1000 text messages a month!). so i think quick! i start thinking that i can swap the screen on my cell with the screen on my brothers cell, i beg him all the way home... he still says no. he says fine, but i have to give him a $75 bike rim that he traded me previously. i say hell no! i think about how much i need a cell and how much it would cost to repalce it... so i finaly give in.

i start tearing into my cell phone... i take all the screws out (with my little scerw driver that came in a pack of camel cigarettes), still it does not come apart! i pry harder and finaly it explodes into a pile of parts, i figure out how to replace just the screens and take his apart (goes a bit smoother). after alot of fiddling and placing of loose buttons as a press it back together... it all snaps into place! all in all a good operation!

so now i have a working cell phone, bryan has a broken cell phone and a $75 bike rim... bastard.

pepsi>coke

im bored, there is nothing to do, the windsheild wipers on my bus dont work, school sucks ass, i cant skateboard, my cat is sleeping on my computer monitor, i have 5 bikes, there is a litter box about 5 feet away, cat farts stink, i like smelling brand new tires!, pepsi>coke, cb radios are for retards (10-4 smokey), rancid is a good band, spinny things amuse me, i want a llama, my shirt is black, *** are cool, microwaves give you cancer, there are not that much shingles on my roof, there is grass and stuff growing out of my gutters, blinds are retarded, acuras are cool, my fingers are cramped, the hallway smelled of sour milk today at school, people are retarded in general... unless the prove otherwise, sticker bushes are not fun at all, bb guns hurt!, i hate html, sperm is a funny word, doors are useless, all of megans socks have holes, minidisc players are out-dated, i am sitting next to a green fridge, and yeah... im bored!

today!

was pretty sweet! lots of randomness and making fun of people (not ones that i care to discuss! ew...) that have looked (undressed me with their eyes!) at me. megans cousin hung out with us, we went all over the place and took extravagant pictures. btw, i dont know if there as any recorded death from extreme crunch wrap supreme intake, but chances are... il prolly be the first!

and im relly getting tired of not being able to kiss longer than a few seconds... my lip needs to heal fast!!!

change

man... talk about a change of emotion over the past 48 hours... first went to see the da vinci code with megan, went to a mexican place to eat (good). the next night i got a message that her parrents want us to break up (bad), had that thought lingering in my mind all night and all morning, then i was informed that we could still go out (good)... then i was informed that we are gonna hang out with her cousin (gooder). and now i just bit my lip (bad!!!) ow! i want to shoot it!

so yeah... how was your day people?

screaming under my breath

im so hyper now... its insane, i wanna go out and run around, but i cant cause it raining. sad. its been so boring today, i have done nothing today, i said i was gonna go out and work on my bus, but i procrastonated and now its raining... shit. im listening to snow patrol now, i like it. my cat is sleeping on my computer monitor and its fat is hanging down in front of the screen. i am bored, and megan cant hang out... stupid sabath.

oh, and i think i probably have mono... that would suck! but that means i wouldnt be the only person with it! haha!!!

yesterday...

... was good over all. me, megan, and her family went to see the Da Vinci Code, then went to this mexican place. the movie was pretty good, alot more boring than the comercials said it would be, pretty good special effects.. even though there was very few. the mexican place on the other hand was not the best i have ever had... ew. i got this burrito, and it was supposed to be a burrito right? the thing came and it was covered in like salad, i could not see the burrito, and all it had in it was meat, there was not really anything else. not to mention i had a stomach ache afterwards when i got home... then had to drive megan home in a bus that had non working turn signals. yay. oh... also my lip hurts like crazy, im really getting tired of it hurting... ow! its anoying, and its not that pain that you can just forget about until it heals, this always hurts and in always aware of it hurting...

the plan

run.

if you dont understand, you dont know me, dont ask please.

this pain...

i dont get it, i have this pain, this anguish... its so small... and insignificant that i dont notice it, but i sure did a few mins ago when i was just out sitting on my front porch. i have no clue where it comes from, or maybe i do, but dont people get over things? and it always hits when im alone, the worst time cause there is no one for me to hold close...

i think the worst part is that i cant cry, i feel like an idiot for letting something get so close to my heart... maybe thats why i have such a hard time letting anyone else near my heart... if i cant get close enough to it on my own...

i dunno... asdfjklj;lajksdf;lk!!! ><

my love!...

... is a 79 vw bus! its the most kickass ride in all of everett! i just got her up and running today, tabs, transfered the title from my moms name into mine, fixed the tail light, and changed the oil. she needs to be cleaned up a bit, but overall an awsome peice of work. and you will be amazed at the condition! there is absolutly no interior whatsoever! all there is, is the front seats, and a bench seat in the back! nothing else! the paint is mint condition! under the layers of dirt and primer! the windsheild has a lovely crack going right through the center. and the best part of all... its loud as all hell!!! but it still does not matter, il never sell it or give it up, i think id rather die. and the best part is that it is still worth a ton, it has a porsche motor, 3 rip tranny, like no rust, and is fuel injected!

so if you see a mostly primered vw bus driving around everett... chances are thats me!

12:02 am

well, lets just say i am pretty friggen happy right now and cant get someone off my mind : )! its now 12:03 am, and i am not tired, i said id be up by like 10:00 am so i could help megan get to sea tac (carpool lane usage!), i still need to take a snower too (bad). today me and megan went to forrest park, i braught my bike to ride the trails, she braught a book, i think overall she was happier! i am now tired (not really), sweaty, and am in need of a shower (... bad). today is thursday, i dont have school til monday... sweet!!! today was good. i get tabs for my vw bus (pimpin'est ride in the EVT) tomorrow... hopefully, plus i need to fix the tail light on it, so i think tomorrow will be pretty eventfull! and it will be friday! that means that there will still be 2 more days of no school after that!!! oh, and this is the happier, spontanious side of me, i think i like it better... but who am i to choose?!

ps. now its 12:10 am!

the mind of a [fill in the blank]

well, i dont know how to start, i really dont get how my mind works... it can go to hyper, to depressed, to concearned, then back to happy in a few minutes. it really ticks me off, and il be thinking while trying to think of something else, then get off track of both (its like a train running into another train). my mom once said that you were a genius of you could not keep track of your thoughts... but my dad once said that there is no noticible difference between a genius and a madman, just the motive... i wonder what side of the spectrum i fall under. i really get tired of people saying that i am a failure (sometimes they joke, and sometimes they arent), i mean it really takes a toll on my self worth, and i am also tired of people telling me that if i wanted to, i could do anything, that is just as bad. i dont know what to do anymore, should i follow the negative or the positive side, i have lost all bias... where am i, please tell me, just fill me in... throw me a friggen bone here!

ahhh, i feel like shit

i dunno why, i think its a mix of the heat and not getting any sleep at all last night, i have no apatite really and can barely keep my eyes open... this sucks major ass. if i feel like this tomorrow, im gonna be royaly pissed.

The First None

as the title emplies... i dont make too much sense, i write what sounds good and random, after all, im a random person... for the most part.

so lets get to the down and dirty with who i am!

my name is Mike, i live in Everett Washington (the EVT), i am currently 18, my b-day is sep 18, 1987... i was born in Orange so-cal... and yeah, what more do ya want?!

first of all i like Social Distortion! they are the best band there is, mike ness is the coolest dude alive, hands down! music is my life, right now im listening to Crystal Method, born too slow... i cant stand not listening to music, i go through entire cd's at a time, then il switch to a new one once that one is spent. il go more in depth in another post sometime...

i dont like talking too much about my past, there is alot of pain that i have had to deal with, and i have dealt with it as i felt appropriate, mostly by supressing it and trying to forget about certain things. if i tell you something that is pretty deep about me, be amazed that i actualy said it, because it usualy takes aloooot of courage on my part!

as a person overall, i am a pretty laid back person, il act mean sometimes, but thats just cause i dont really care about what people i think. if i hurt you in the past, i am sincerely sorry and will promise that i didnt mean a word of it, different people deal with hostility in different ways, if you took it wrong, im sorry. there is one person that i would never ever mean to hurt. most people call my laid-back-ness lazy, hell... so do i, but its better than being a stuck up little turd like 90% of the schools population... (i go to everett high btw).

what i do: well... just as the thing states, i do things! for one, i bike! tons, i have tons of bikes and parts, alot of pain has gone into (and been the product of) riding, i have mounting bikes, bmx bikes, road bikes, and some rarities. my primary ride is a .243 racing hardtail moutain bike (single speed urban destroyer!), i bike hard. i hang out with my girlfreind (megan keck) tons, cause apparently im good enough to be in her presence... haha! we go all over the place, its fun, she is fun, i love her! i am really good with cars and mechanical things, my property is littered with cars and parts! as well as minibikes, go-carts, and three wheelers! oh, i also fill megans car up with garbage pretty fast!

what i dont (or wont) do: smoke, i hate it, i hate the taste/smell... etc. driking... wait! who am i kidding?! i wont pass up a good party! i dont like fakes, dont tell your lies to me, id rather not hear anything, then hear you try to cover something up that i already know the truth to (cause im cool like that and can read you like a book the second you walk in the door!). wiggers, its that somple, i cant stand them, the way they dress, act, look... walk, talk, ect... posers! people that say fo-rizzel, that pisses me off more than anything. monopoly, not so much the game, but the fact that we dont have any control over our lives, there is always someone selling or buying the real-estate out from under you, and you have to have tons of cash to afford a get-outa-jail-free card, it pisses me off. there will be more complaining of things i hate, but thats for another post! look forward to that one!!!

ender: well, hopefully you know me a bit better, if you dont... you must be a retard that cant connect two thoughts together. i am me, and il never change for people that i dont love or care about, so if you want me to change, you better buy me a friggen birthday present dammit!!!

so yeah, im out, peace niggs.

-mikeeee