vanessa man...

what a drag. met her a while ago, we got along great... even started liking eachother, we would go out drinking and such. even slept together a few times. then all of a sudden interest was lost on her end. i dont know why... i dont know if it was someone she talked to, or something i said, or some i way i started acting, fucking sucks. and the worst part is that im still in love with her. she irritates me so fucking much. she just dismisses me whenever i talk to her about it, doesnt say she is not interested in me... nothing. i find myself thinking about her all the time, and i just irritate and depress myself. now she is hanging out with some dude, a replacement i figure. i have told myself over and over that i would just push her out of my life until i get my head straight, but i cant fucking do it... either she texts me or i text her asking what is up, and it starts all over again. i know myspace is myspace and many relationships have been destroyed all over it... but she posts these fucking bulletins, its almost like she is ashamed to mention me around her [myspace] friends.

whatever, no one reads this... im just doing it to further depress myself on the subject.