wow i messed up...

really... no one can even begin to imagine the way i feel. the one thing i wanted more than anything... but neglected so much, will never happen. i thought i was over it all, aparently not, just the idea of her kissing some other guy (dont get me wrong, she has as much of a right as anyone)... just turns my stomache.

and the worst part, no one reads this blog, man im depressing.